Usually, Sunday is a day I get up at noon. I was up before 10 so we could go to Mimi's Cafe for Mother's Day brunch/lunch.
I was hoping to tile when we got home but I was still hungry and the Pirates game was still in progress.
Baseball is a time thief.
Made sirloin on the grill. Not usual, but it came out very delicious.
Been wearing Up and Up wrist brace to help with my numbness. It's mostly just a wrap, yet the box said "ideal for carpal tunnel." Other products at Target were much more expensive. I'm too cheap to buy something that I'm not sure I need(I have a doctor's appointment in a couple weeks).
Regardless, I wasn't as productive as I'd have liked today. At least J seemed to have enjoyed her day.
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Sunday, May 12, 2013
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
364 days later
Today marks the last day of the year that has been ramblings and meanderings here. I remember 4/18/12 like yesterday. I was unhappy. Not as annoyed as I most recently was with Menards.
A number of uneventful things have occurred, but yet I can vividly recall such inane moments in time. Perhaps I shall revisit those stale posts and fix them into a certain standardization, if I feel inclined to do such things. The first 50 or so things were written in a manner to add original contact to get approval for an Adsense account. Probably won't since my spacial sense of time has gotten out of whack.
I woke up yesterday morning thinking it was Saturday.
I need to focus on the things that are important and to make them my priority. TV isn't going anywhere as I tell K with regards to DVDs and Netflix, same can be said for the clutternet.
New Year's resolutions should be season dependent and flexible throughout the year, even though they boil down to being the same vague notions that seem unobtainable to the likes of me. I just have to raise the bar and focus on the tasks and forget about the big picture like Mathew Scudder's AA meetings have taught me.
A number of uneventful things have occurred, but yet I can vividly recall such inane moments in time. Perhaps I shall revisit those stale posts and fix them into a certain standardization, if I feel inclined to do such things. The first 50 or so things were written in a manner to add original contact to get approval for an Adsense account. Probably won't since my spacial sense of time has gotten out of whack.
I woke up yesterday morning thinking it was Saturday.
I need to focus on the things that are important and to make them my priority. TV isn't going anywhere as I tell K with regards to DVDs and Netflix, same can be said for the clutternet.
New Year's resolutions should be season dependent and flexible throughout the year, even though they boil down to being the same vague notions that seem unobtainable to the likes of me. I just have to raise the bar and focus on the tasks and forget about the big picture like Mathew Scudder's AA meetings have taught me.
- read more
- manage time better with regards to priorities
- engage with the family better
- eat better
- be more active
- appreciate the little things and become at peace with the things beyond my control
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Parallels
There are things beyond my control that will frustrate me until I am able to accept such circumstances and worry about things I can control.
I believe that the Serenity Prayer is a re-occurring theme in Kurt Vonnegut's Slaughterhouse Five. It's been years since I read the book, but I remember the prayer being written on a locket dangling in the cleavage of the B-movie star. Pictures/drawings makes such images easier to recall, and KV had a way with crude drawings. I didn't know there was such thing as such a prayer until an alcoholic told me that the prayer was said during AA meetings. This makes sense since K's uncle supposedly founded an AA chapter, and K was always intrigued by the artificial extended family element that AA created.
Anyways, given the nature of the Serenity Prayer, one must wonder how much free will is one allowed to fret.
I can pick my friends, but I cannot pick my family.
I can pick my degree of education, but I can't force someone to hire me.
I am frustrated that I cannot get work, so I pursue things outside my typical field in addition to expanding my geographic search. I still meet the same result of going no where, which suggests that I'm still doing the same thing and expecting different results. I'm doing a number of things differently, so I'm thinking I need to scrap everything I've worked towards and start over.
The reality is that I'm not comfortable starting over. I've a skill set and degree that already makes me overqualified for most entry level positions, and I've been passed over because employers don't want to hire someone that will up and leave for greener pastures at first opportunity.
When I was an infant, my mom quit her teaching job. I am not sure of the reasons, but I take it that she wasn't comfortable with childcare arrangements. She never got another full time teaching position until I was in college. She always tried to get another job even while I was a toddler, but the best she could do was be a long term sub. Not sure why, especially considering she was a special ed teacher, but we lived on a single income for the most part when you consider my father is a teacher as well.We could have moved to another job market, but my dad didn't want to lose his seniority.
I don't want to be like my parents and willfully inflicting harm upon my children out of selfishness of being determined to work within my field without moving.
I believe that the Serenity Prayer is a re-occurring theme in Kurt Vonnegut's Slaughterhouse Five. It's been years since I read the book, but I remember the prayer being written on a locket dangling in the cleavage of the B-movie star. Pictures/drawings makes such images easier to recall, and KV had a way with crude drawings. I didn't know there was such thing as such a prayer until an alcoholic told me that the prayer was said during AA meetings. This makes sense since K's uncle supposedly founded an AA chapter, and K was always intrigued by the artificial extended family element that AA created.
Anyways, given the nature of the Serenity Prayer, one must wonder how much free will is one allowed to fret.
I can pick my friends, but I cannot pick my family.
I can pick my degree of education, but I can't force someone to hire me.
I am frustrated that I cannot get work, so I pursue things outside my typical field in addition to expanding my geographic search. I still meet the same result of going no where, which suggests that I'm still doing the same thing and expecting different results. I'm doing a number of things differently, so I'm thinking I need to scrap everything I've worked towards and start over.
The reality is that I'm not comfortable starting over. I've a skill set and degree that already makes me overqualified for most entry level positions, and I've been passed over because employers don't want to hire someone that will up and leave for greener pastures at first opportunity.
When I was an infant, my mom quit her teaching job. I am not sure of the reasons, but I take it that she wasn't comfortable with childcare arrangements. She never got another full time teaching position until I was in college. She always tried to get another job even while I was a toddler, but the best she could do was be a long term sub. Not sure why, especially considering she was a special ed teacher, but we lived on a single income for the most part when you consider my father is a teacher as well.We could have moved to another job market, but my dad didn't want to lose his seniority.
I don't want to be like my parents and willfully inflicting harm upon my children out of selfishness of being determined to work within my field without moving.
Monday, September 17, 2012
Living Well in a Down Economy
Going to the dentist is a pain to some, but I like going for it gives me a chance to talk with people.
Our regular hygienist has two girls and a husband that has been between jobs a bit. Her husband has a temp job now but its 90 miles away. Rather than commuting daily, he has an apartment.
This situation is a scenario J and I have discussed. You do what you have to do, and sometimes situations makes sense to change your mindset.
Just being open-minded doesn't mean an opportunity will present itself.
Just have to stay positive and think about the things that we have control over.
In the grand scheme of things, happiness is obtainable if you want to be happy. Worrying gives rise to preparation, but worrying for the sake of worrying is senseless. If Plan A doesn't work then go with Plan B. As long as contingency plans are based on reality and are goal oriented towards the same general result then progress will happen regardless of the small episodes of failure along the way through the process of elimination.
Is there a fate worse than death? Worrying about such things surely ranks up there, which makes me wonder why there are atheists in the world. I puzzle about a number of things, but I don't worry about them enough to desire reasons based on whimsy. Regardless of the causality, things happen for a reason, and I try to go in the direction I am meant to go. Situations present themselves and circumstances dictate which path I follow. Dumb luck happens, but preparation helps nudge one to be in the right place at the right time. It's easy to regret decisions in hindsight, but regret is wasted energy unless a lesson is learned.
Our regular hygienist has two girls and a husband that has been between jobs a bit. Her husband has a temp job now but its 90 miles away. Rather than commuting daily, he has an apartment.
This situation is a scenario J and I have discussed. You do what you have to do, and sometimes situations makes sense to change your mindset.
Just being open-minded doesn't mean an opportunity will present itself.
Just have to stay positive and think about the things that we have control over.
In the grand scheme of things, happiness is obtainable if you want to be happy. Worrying gives rise to preparation, but worrying for the sake of worrying is senseless. If Plan A doesn't work then go with Plan B. As long as contingency plans are based on reality and are goal oriented towards the same general result then progress will happen regardless of the small episodes of failure along the way through the process of elimination.
Is there a fate worse than death? Worrying about such things surely ranks up there, which makes me wonder why there are atheists in the world. I puzzle about a number of things, but I don't worry about them enough to desire reasons based on whimsy. Regardless of the causality, things happen for a reason, and I try to go in the direction I am meant to go. Situations present themselves and circumstances dictate which path I follow. Dumb luck happens, but preparation helps nudge one to be in the right place at the right time. It's easy to regret decisions in hindsight, but regret is wasted energy unless a lesson is learned.
Friday, July 6, 2012
Moments of blah
Calling "blah" a "rut" is one thing but doing something about it is another thing that gets redundant.
Being cheery is not my MO. Not saying I'm surly or overtly moody, but I have my moments of frustration so I have guarded optimism as my standard modus operandi.
I am not outright afraid of failure, I just don't want to wander into realms I'm not familiar and potentially damage prospects before having proper insight into proceeding towards new endeavors.
Again, I'm a cautious explorer rather than running into things like a modern Don Quixote.
Good intentions mean little when the only things in life that matter are results.
I've had a lot of failure with regards to pursuing gainful employment. I've changed my game plan over the years, but my results aren't getting much better.
I try not to get hung up on things beyond my control. Life isn't always fair, but life is what you make of it.
I am very fortunate to have the wonderful family that I have. Circumstances being what they are, I have no regrets for I already have all that I truly need.
It's easy to feel underwhelmed by the commercialization of life as depicted on television. Television isn't real, but rather it is pulp fiction derived from concentrated perception of happiness of the most shallow variety.
Regardless of the image quality, television is nothing beyond two-dimensional when it comes to emotional depictions due to the detached voyeur element of being a non-participating viewer.
Social media has come to fill that void in some ways, but what has come of it?
Being cheery is not my MO. Not saying I'm surly or overtly moody, but I have my moments of frustration so I have guarded optimism as my standard modus operandi.
I am not outright afraid of failure, I just don't want to wander into realms I'm not familiar and potentially damage prospects before having proper insight into proceeding towards new endeavors.
Again, I'm a cautious explorer rather than running into things like a modern Don Quixote.
Good intentions mean little when the only things in life that matter are results.
I've had a lot of failure with regards to pursuing gainful employment. I've changed my game plan over the years, but my results aren't getting much better.
I try not to get hung up on things beyond my control. Life isn't always fair, but life is what you make of it.
I am very fortunate to have the wonderful family that I have. Circumstances being what they are, I have no regrets for I already have all that I truly need.
It's easy to feel underwhelmed by the commercialization of life as depicted on television. Television isn't real, but rather it is pulp fiction derived from concentrated perception of happiness of the most shallow variety.
Regardless of the image quality, television is nothing beyond two-dimensional when it comes to emotional depictions due to the detached voyeur element of being a non-participating viewer.
Social media has come to fill that void in some ways, but what has come of it?
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Having a blah day
Not saying I am bored or anything, but I've been feeling less than motivated of late. Could be I'm neglecting to take my vitamins regularly, or my thyroid is not happy with me. Who knows?
Dogs days of June, I guess. Baseball season has been filled with ups and downs, and I'm a junky. I can't give it up. I can give up Camels and Bass, but following well compensated athletes, I can't.
Something wrong with following sports when there's much more that is actually important to be accomplished.
I guess that all commercials placed during sporting events are dead giveaways as frivolous wastes of personal income for anyone watching such things knows how to waste time and money to be "entertained" without giving a second thought.
I gave up tv in that I feel no desire to watch things that eventually are available on DVD.
Just have to figure out how to stop being consumed by the radio and internet time bandit. If I sleep through such things, they will still happen without my needing to know about them when they occur. Infovegan concepts transferred towards productive activities that have gainful results beyond the lull of blah when the fix of following a winner doesn't manifest itself in real time and sputters in a numbness of frustration. If only I could program myself like a robot.
Dogs days of June, I guess. Baseball season has been filled with ups and downs, and I'm a junky. I can't give it up. I can give up Camels and Bass, but following well compensated athletes, I can't.
Something wrong with following sports when there's much more that is actually important to be accomplished.
I guess that all commercials placed during sporting events are dead giveaways as frivolous wastes of personal income for anyone watching such things knows how to waste time and money to be "entertained" without giving a second thought.
I gave up tv in that I feel no desire to watch things that eventually are available on DVD.
Just have to figure out how to stop being consumed by the radio and internet time bandit. If I sleep through such things, they will still happen without my needing to know about them when they occur. Infovegan concepts transferred towards productive activities that have gainful results beyond the lull of blah when the fix of following a winner doesn't manifest itself in real time and sputters in a numbness of frustration. If only I could program myself like a robot.
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
FACEBOOK FREEFALL CONTINUES...
What exactly made anyone think that Facebook stock would be a good buy?
I only saw Obama For America ads blanket the site of late, and people aren't fond of their info being used for marketing. Maybe I'm missing something since I only see Facebook as a fad, but something must be wrong in Menlo Park, right?
What's driving people to use it?
Facebook simply peaked prior to its IPO, so it had no where to go, but down unless it bought up/merged with Yahoo and Microsoft to compete against Google.
Mergers don't exactly work all the time as AOL/Timer-Warner clearly indicated.
The IPO made sense for Facebook, because it needed capital to grow/develop beyond its current rut.
Stock Market needs to be taught in basic high school education. People need to understand how corporations are developed and structured. Some people assume things about the market since they see how successful people get rich quick and young, so they relate the markets to playing the lotto or outright thievery. They get involved for the wrong reasons, and nothing good comes of their endeavor..
- Was it the free games?
- Was it the free means to keep in touch with old flames just in case your marriage got irreconcilable?
- Was it the success of Myspace?
I only saw Obama For America ads blanket the site of late, and people aren't fond of their info being used for marketing. Maybe I'm missing something since I only see Facebook as a fad, but something must be wrong in Menlo Park, right?
What's driving people to use it?
- Cyberstalking?
- Farmville?
- Chat features that AOL used LAST CENTURY?
Facebook simply peaked prior to its IPO, so it had no where to go, but down unless it bought up/merged with Yahoo and Microsoft to compete against Google.
Mergers don't exactly work all the time as AOL/Timer-Warner clearly indicated.
The IPO made sense for Facebook, because it needed capital to grow/develop beyond its current rut.
- It costs a lot to run servers to allow up to 900 million users access to their online Facebook content.
- Facebook has a number of issues with hackers, so they have to prevent outside parties from invading their servers.
Stock Market needs to be taught in basic high school education. People need to understand how corporations are developed and structured. Some people assume things about the market since they see how successful people get rich quick and young, so they relate the markets to playing the lotto or outright thievery. They get involved for the wrong reasons, and nothing good comes of their endeavor..
Monday, May 28, 2012
Disappointed in the New Jalapeno Crunch Steakburger
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