Mythical Day

Blah days happen. Making plans only matters when the actors involved are having worthwhile days.
I awoke at 7 today, but soon realized my day was doomed when I hadn't heard Jen stirring by the time I hoped to start on my dumb bathroom project.
I had delays in previous weekends due to my own lack of feeling well, so Jen being sick made today par for the month. It's been a long time running, so what's another day or week?
Being a blah day, I found myself contemplating dumb stuff. Sure I'm happy and all but I know I wasted a lot of time when I was young and dumb. I can't get that time back, but I wonder if it really matters since I'm mostly happy now but I know I didn't have to be miserable during my teens. I mean I lived a very sheltered life devoid of adventure. I was afraid of stuff, that I find much too silly to say aloud. I guess hindsight is 20/20, but the variables weren't cut down the middle as choices I actually made. I mean, I was primed to avoid sex and drugs given fears of getting disease or such and ruining a future. I just don't know what future I was hoping to have. I like where I am, but I wouldn't have pegged my current life as something towards which to strive 20 years ago. Meh. I have a wife who has put up with me for 19 years. I don't have to try to be around people, I have her. We have 3 kids that keep us busy, so blah days are actually few and far between. I regret nothing, I just wonder what will come my way that I'll find myself pondering in 20 years.