giving up

I've come to the conclusion that freewill is an illusion. That said I will continue to do the things I feel like doing but without the expectation of achieving any intended meaningful purpose to said act. I'm doubling down on apathy. I'm going to coast until I hit a wall or come across something that makes me excited. I'm going to read think like a freak and I'm going to be meh about reading it. I feel it will give me reason to take notes and be a jerk in response to every assumption made by the two. I think that there's a section about using coin flips to make decisions. Hmmmm. I normally don't think of decisions in a yes or no manner.