four weeks have passed

My baby is four weeks old. Seems like she's still a little thing but now her NB sized clothes are getting to fit snugly.
It will be months before she begins to crawl, but she will be doing such soon enough as the days and nights blur.
Not sure why J ever agreed to marry me, for I'm not quite sure why I even asked her so quickly. I didn't settle for her by any stretch of my thinking for I actually envisioned her being the mother to our children that could erase my negative emotional shortcomings.

Watched Salinger tonight, and something about his detachment is was what I recalled desiring before I met J.

I read his work while in high school when I was 15. I didn't let anyone see me reading it for I knew they all thought I was disturbed and people who read his work have been known to gun down people they consider to be "phony." Not sure if I thought my classmates were phonies or not, but I know I had a hard time relating with most of them. The internet wasn't around, so my solitude was realtime and otherworldly. The only private thoughts I knew were my own.