usual ponderings

Ever year I try to self assess and hope to change things for the better. I'm lousy at following through on anything since everything boils down to vague ideals. Tonight I was doing my night job and thinking about a five year outlook with regards of getting set for when D will be school age.
Not sure how long my hands and such can keep at said job, but five more years of boredom there seems regressive, rather than status quo.
I've plenty of options, but I don't care for them, given I'm disorganized at the moment and more commitments won't tame my chaos. I need to master my current state before I add to it. Being proactive is not easy, but first thing will be to focus upon creating energy. Eating better and getting proper rest will get priority over doing slacker fun stuff... if I can get some

self discipline. Gotta give up on the excess screen time and audio distractions... blog be damned.